State of Confusion

Do you ever feel at a loss for what to do? I'm feeling that way right now. I've recently been to the doctor three times. I've been diagnosed with something that probably won't affect me now, but might (probably, could, who knows) in a few years. I've really been struggling with what to do about it.

I met with the doctor today. It went surprisingly well. Without asking he went through all my labs, explained everything. He assured me he was treating other clients with this same problem, but if I wanted to I could be referred out. He told me that provided the medicine works, I should (theoretically) be normal from now on. I was generally pleased with how the meeting went. My doctor also thanked me for (essentially) not being crazy, hysterical or presenting him with obscure medical studies.

I want to believe him, but part of me doesn't. I'm also a little frustrated because I have this diagnosis, but only one of the symptoms. It just makes me mad about women's health issues in general. I wish they would put a little more effort into understanding the way a woman's body works.

So, what to do, what to do. I'm really leaning towards sticking with my doctor for now and then when and if this becomes a problem seek other treatment. Who knows. I'm still waiting for one more lab, maybe that will make a difference. *sigh* The joys of being ambivalent.